Updates x

Hey guys!

Just back from another week in the sun....yes i am jammy!!!! It was a lovely relaxing week which saw me shop every morning,sunbathe every afternoon and go out for dinner each evening (something i actually ENJOY doing these days!).

Back to rainny Dublin now and back to reality! About a month ago i got offered a place at college to do a fast track to employment course which i am delighted about however i still havent started it yet which is rather frustrating me,im not the most patient of people! The thing that seems to be holding everything up is the medical. College obviously werent completely happy with it as they now want me to be assessed be THEIR psych which is happening tomorrow morning. Hopefully i can prove myself sane enough for them to take me on LOL ;-) and then i can finally start after the summer break (end of august).

Im seeing A (my therapist&social worker) on thursday which im looking forward to,she can be really helpful with practical stuff along with everything else and is invaluable!!!

Im not back to see my psych (Dr.M)or dietician(Y) until next week which means weigh in time! Im sure with all those dinners out and the glorious strawberry cheesecake ice cream i indulged in my weight should still be going up...i just hope its not jumped up a scary amount. I can deal with a couple of pounds but anything more and i know it will freak me out!

Now onto the good stuff! SHOPPING!!! I got this fab yellow dress in Topshop reduced from 75euro to 15euro! I had been looking at it when it first hit the shops but couldnt justify buying it at the price it was and then today there it was one left in the sale....PERFECT.

I also popped into pennys and got a couple of light knitted jumpers (Yes i know its summer but this IS ireland!).

I picked up these cute flats in the River Island sale,they were reduced to 14euro!

Thats all for now lovelies,im all shopped out....until tomorrow.... :o) xxx

Discharged :-) x

Home sweet home.

Veryyyyyy Happy Aoifs :-)

Its been a tough 12 weeks and its now the real work begins! I have gone from 5 stone to 6 stone and am on a mission to get to 7 stone in time. I know deep down this is a good healthy thing but anorexia still consumes much of my thoughts and wants me to lose instead of continuing to gain. It really is so nice to be home but with it comes a lot of ups and downs and responsibility. Im so scared of messing things up again but i wont dwell on that,im trying to just concentrate on slowly moving forward and so far so good.

Off to Lanzarote on sunday :-) If it rains,i may cry! LOL! I want the sunshine!!!

Im going to start taking photos again,probably mostly of clothes/outfits etc to post here. I want this to be a place where i can vent about recovery but also fashion,i dont expect many people to follow it or anything,i think its just nice to have and it will give me something to do. Which reminds me. I have been clearing out my wardrobes and i have 8 black bags of clothes,shoes and bags that i dont want anymore. Most in excellant condition. Usually i would give it all to charity but im trying to make some cash so if anyone has any ideas where i could sell them (apart from ebay) please let me know.

Getting my hair done tomorrow,back to blonde i go!!! xxx

Style wars on the psych ward lol x

Ok so because of the joy of bedrest for the past 3 and a half weeks i have been stuck in my pjs and i am seriously missing my clothes and putting together outfits. I already know what im going to wear the day i get off bedrest...hahaha that is so uncool of me LOL! I got this amazing vintage daytime dress just before i came into hospital that i am dying to wear! U know when u put something on and instantly ur mood lifts and u feel good in urself? Its not often that happens when youre anorexic but when it DOES happen boy does it feel good!

Only problem is im scared it will be too small for me by the time i get to wear it...i got some growing room in it though so hopefully it will be ok and it wont end in tears!!! Fingers crossed!

Theres only two people around my age in here and then a load of OAPS so i dont have THAT much competition in the fashion stakes....still even while on bedrest i made sure to get new pjs and dressing gowns and hair accessories....sounds a bit vain but i love my fashion and it cheers me up and gives me something to do in the morning...although of course there are the bad days when i wont even wash my hair or put on a scrap of make up but hey we all have those dont we?

The fashion course i was supposed to be starting just before i got admitted have said they will keep a place for me when it starts up on its next term,please dear lord god heavens above i hope i can make it onto the next term and complete it at least then i will feel i have accomplised SOMETHING...although a friend said to me recently fightng anorexia and winning is a huge achievement all on its own....maybe she is right? Its definitely the hardest thing ive had to deal with. Its like going againest everything ive believed in for ten years,all i know and fighting againest that voice in my head is a huge task. My head says one thing,my heart says another...

'Go confidantly in the direction of your dreams. Live the life u have imagined.'