...and do it anyway.
And that is what i have done today.
Three meals.
My tummy round and bulging.
A food baby.
Its not getting any easier.
They wont tell me my weight.
I imagine i have gained an awful lot.
Much more than i can deal with.
Surely i should know my weight that way i wont get too much of a shock when i do eventually get to weigh myself?
And why does it even matter so much?
Why do i care so much?
I dont judge any of my friends on their weight.
I swear i dont.
Why do i think they would do it to me?
I imagine they are repulsed by what they see and cant help but be disgusted by my size.
What are they going to think if i keep getting bigger and bigger?
What if i lose all control???
