So tuesday has come and gone and not a pound in sight. 0.1kg up. Ffs. Here i am eating more than i have in bloody ages and THAT was my increase! I didnt know wether to laugh or cry so i did both.
I have 1.25kg to gain before i get to a BMI of 14....is this possible before next weigh in on tuesday,damn im gonna make it possible. Today i ate CAKE and it was bloody good AND it was PINK and there was little guilt. Could it get any better?
The past few days have been hard,they are changing my medication reducing one anti-depressant and increasing a new one. Now its a waiting game! I dont know about meds,i mean wether i agree with them or not but ive always taken them whenever prescribed since the age of 15. They dont take the sadness away or the desperation but can take the edge off or give u a false high (this is just m,y experience of them) Another med im on makes me quite dopey and slow and i hate that but they say i need to stay on it to be well.
Meds or no meds....that is the question?
Love Aoifs xxx
meds all the way my love.
ReplyDeleteim on some too, and yes, they are not the only thing, but its part of recovery... if i need to be on them to be 'ok' enough to function, then thats just how it is at the moment.
we both know that when mood dips, so does the weight, its important to stabalise both.
it wont be for ever, but it can be very very useful to use along with other help xxxxxxxx