Its never low enough.
I promised myself when i got to a BMI of 13 id maintain and now i just have to lose more and more until i disappear hopefully. Im refusing the feed and eating a small portion of sweetcorn a day. I have to get really low this time. None of this messing about. Ill get to 9 and then stop.
I feel like being very destructive but thats very hard when ur on 24 hour watch.
I just want to hurt myself and release some tension but they wont give me a minute alone.
Im aware my posts are extremely negative and dont expect anyone to read them i just need an outlet.
EVeryones getting on with ther lives it wouldnt matter if i wasnt here. Im so tired. Its a fight that i cannot win....
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