Im tired.
I stopped my feed after 3 hours today because i just couldnt handle it.
I dont know what to do anymore.
I saw my dietician and she said id end up back on the medical ward soon if something didnt change but i just dont care enough.
My bmi is 13 now and i swore id stop at that but i cant i have to go lower.
I just dont know when is going to be low enough.
Im miserable in here but i cant do what i have to do to get out.
Im not using much energy so i figure i dont need much energy.
I am just sitting or lying down surely i dont need calories for that!
WHen i get to a bmi of 12 i will try and maintain there.
Until then....
I cannot do this anymore,i cannot eat.
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