Friday is nearly upon us which means review day at the hospital.
Scared.
I feel like ive gainned which would make 'them' happy.
Im torn in two.
I think the best thing would be if i maintained. I could deal with that.
Mood isnt much better but trying to be positive. 1st of December and all that jazz...got to make an effort.
Took a double dose of Dalmane last night and got less then 2 hours sleep. Its been like this for weeks now. Just cant switch off my silly brain. Ive tried everything i can think of and still wide awake all night and exhausted during the day. Sleep fairies seem to have forgot about me.
I wonder so often lately is recovery really truely possible?
xxx
All you can today tomorrow is be honest-if your honest they can help maybe.
ReplyDeleteIn terms of recovery I think it depends on what you believe and how you feel, as you well know its a lot more than the physical weight gain that has to be tackled, I think the poor sleep probably doesnt help at all so maybe if nothing else tomorrow they can try and solve that issue?
I hope whatever they say tomorrow you can believe them when they say how ill you are, you've made huge strides but this is a journey and one which is full of ups and downs, you just have to keep trying again X